bittersweet

as many of you know, i am going back to the states on sunday for a nice long 5 week visit. i could not be more excited! i'm not gonna lie, i am always looking forward to going home even if i just got back from a trip. don't get me wrong, i really do like being here in costa rica with paris and his family and working at my job but i also really love being at home with my friends and my family.

it's hard living in another country without your own people. it's hard always feeling like that foreigner girl, especially when the language spoken isn't your native language. it's hard not being able to do some of the things you would normally do at home just because here it simply isn't safe or comfortable. and it's really hard not to think about those things a lot of the time.

oh the other hand, it is very very nice to be here with paris and to have the opportunity to live (pretty much) on our own and have our relationship grow while we are face to face instead of thousands of miles apart ... yes that part is nice.

so that is why this upcoming trip is bittersweet. because paris .. and my baby rocco ... cannot make the trip with me. in order for paris to enter the U.S.A he needs a visa. even if it is just a week long trip ... he needs a visa. and that visa process really isn't all that easy or cheap. so we are waiting until he has a little bit more experience at his job where they can write him a really great recommendation letter that will hopefully lead him to visa-dom. but until then i have to make my trips home solo (or sola .. you know if you're speaking spanish). so yes this trip is a little bittersweet because heck yes i am excited to go home! but boy oh boy am i gonna miss my two guys!

leavin'on a jet plane

welp, tomorrow i'm off to the good ol' usa for two weeks! as you probably already know, i could not be more excited.

however,

i am most certainly going to miss my boys.

one of them even tried to get into my suitcase this afternoon! okay maybe it was me who tried to put him in there...

but seriously, i am going to miss these two like crazy. lets see how they do without me for a few days.

love you both! and see you before you know it.

<3

what a guy...

 

the other day when i was really missing home and my friends, p decided he was going to cook dinner for me. now let me remind you all that no one in our apartment is a professional chef. we're both more of what you would say, extremely new to cooking.

even so, p made a very yummy red sauce with some whirly twirly noodles. then i just threw some avocado on top, because i put avocado on almost anything, sprinkled some  kraft parmesan cheese (that my parents graciously brought when they visited), and voila!

an extremely yummy dinner that i didn't have to cook. isn't he the best?

miss you!

this is me and boyfriend last year on new years. it hasnt even been a week that i've been home and i already miss him like crazy! i guess when you're used to being with someone all the time, thats what happens. i'm kinda sad we won't be together for christmas or new years this year but i would gladly give up this month to be with my friends and family for the holidays and then be with boyfriend ALL the time after that. after doing long distance for so long it has been really great to be able to spend soooo much time together (it's the truth! he loves it too).

so i just wanted to use this post to say i miss you like cuh-razy even though you may not think so. every day there are a million things i feel like i need to tell you, most specifically whenever i hear someone say weirdo or awkward and the fact that i have said tome chi chi about a million and one times in my head because no one would understand what i am saying.

i love you to infinity and beyond beyond beyond.